How I became a worrier and the ONE question that helped me stop

If you know me and you know my family then it isn’t any mystery how I became a worrier. My mother and father did a great job instilling in me the need to be fearful of the world. My father was a workaholic and constantly trying to get the praise of his superiors. Though he rose in the ranks and ended up holding a position he longed for, he was still unhappy. He couldn’t settle into his success. My mother was a good people pleaser and that woman could keep a house clean I tell ya! OCD prep school. That was my childhood. She never sat down. She scurried around. So she was never settled either. 

I think that is a key piece of worry. 

Not being able to settle yourself.

I am a new drummer. It has been such a wild ride learning something new in my 40s! I am grateful to play with other women who are also learning and women who are so damn good that I bow to them every time they show up for rehearsal! 

We had a small neighborhood gig to rehearse for and it was fun. The rehearsals that is. 

Then it came time for the show. 

Being on an actual stage with people listening ratcheted up anxiety – understandably. The entire week before the show it felt like someone set a herd of hamsters lose in my chest cavity.

Will I be good enough? 

Will I be judged?

I am going to let everyone down!

The belief at the core of worry is:  Am I okay?

Worry is future oriented. We worry because we are not sure what is going to happen. And we are  concerned that we won’t be prepared for what actually does happen. 

It’s a feeling of incapability

And distrust in ourselves. 

Sometimes it can be subtle. Just a flutter in my chest or stomach that says, “uh oh…you sure about this?” And sometimes the worry and anxious feelings completely dominant my existence. And keep me up at night running scenarios.

No one I know likes the feeling of uncertainty. We plan and prepare and rehearse and wring our hands in an attempt to decrease that awful feeling of powerlessness.  

But that kind of worry is unproductive. 

Planning and rehearsing have their place.  But only if they are helping us know a subject better, or feel more confident in a presentation, getting all the details squared away for our European vacation.

Fretting and hand wringing is a type of worry that doesn’t create any traction. Its simply spinning in circles. 

So how do we help ourselves when we have the unproductive type of worry?

We learn to listen to ourselves.

Turning inward isn’t the automatic go-to response when it comes to worry, but unless we want to spin around in our minds until we exhaust ourselves, I suggest considering these options:

We might need to talk things out with someone.

We might need to move our bodies.

We might need to snuggle with our dog

We might need to focus on our breathing

We might actually need to vacuum the entire house and clean the baseboards. Okay. Forget the baseboards. That’s just ridiculous. But we might need to do some task where we see results. That is fine. Your inner OCD part will love you!

Here’s what we need to sorta kinda maybe try to stay away from:

We don’t need to get angry with ourselves. 

We don’t need to fix ourselves. 

We don’t need to change our experience. (Whew. That is a big one to explore.)

We just need to hear the worry out. Like you would a friend. 

Most of us don’t want to slow down enough to get to a place where we can hear our worry or anxiety. We don’t know what to do with our worry and it easily becomes overwhelming. But that feeling of overwhelm is like a baby crying, and it needs your attention. It needs your comfort. 

If there was a crying baby, in my living room and I was somewhere else in the house and this little scared being was asking for attention and I told myself it was a pain in the ass and it needed to get over itself…wow, that is some serious harshness right there. 

That is basically what we are doing when we worry. 

We are trying to ignore it until it takes over and then when it does take our full attention, we get angry that it got that loud or that intense. 

What is wrong with us??!!! 

Why can’t we just _______ (fill in the blank) — be more confident, be more prepared, be more assertive, be more whatever we feel deficient in. 

That is like going into the living room and saying to a baby, “hey, shut the hell up! Get over yourself! Control your feelings!”

You have lived enough life already to know this isn’t a good solution to worry.

To befriend our worry often takes guidance from an outside source. 

The reason being…worry is like a vortex

It feeds on itself and our inner critics thrive on it. That loop is hard to break on our own. 

Until you can find someone outside your worry loop to help, try asking yourself this question to help slow the speeding tilt-a-whirl of worry:


Sometimes it is. Sometimes its good to think A LOT about something. To do research and talk to other people and sit with yourself to get clarity. 

Most of our worry though…its draining and debilitating. But asking ourselves if we are being productive can at least take us off the ride temporarily. 

If you want to untangle the overwhelm of worry, give me a call! I love helping people come up with ways to make your worry productive!! 

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